6.4.14
2014. i started you with a brand new light. with new hopes and dreams. new goals to be a better person. all in the name of the afterlife. i fought all the doubts i had about myself and decided to at least give myself a chance. i was determined, that with this chance i am going to be a better person. a better person who would look back and learn from the past and never to repeat it again.
shaykh abdul jabbar "i asked allah to protect me from my enemies and i started losing my friends"
this is deep and it means alot to me. all i can say is allah has better instored for me. if you cant handle me at my worst you definitely do not deserve my best. alhamdulillah allah has closed my heart to whats not meant to be and open it to what i have always been overlooking. no amount of alhamdulillah can express me feeling grateful.
i have had families and friends with awkward reaction. some just refuse to talk to me. some talk behind me.
i have no control. but all i can say is alhamdulillah and thank you to those who accepted me for what i am. ill keep you in my prayers day and night always and forever.
'the word love in the quran, appears in over 90 places. but interestingly, it doesnt define the word love, but speaks about the very first consequences of love; that is commitment. islam talks about commitment, if you truly love something or someone you commit. if you do not, then your claim of real love is not real at all.'
i can go on and on about my love life. it may aspire you or just make you sick in the stomach. this life on earth, i've met a couple of wrong ones, a couple that just didn't work out and a couple that should have never crossed my path. thankfully 5000 million years ago when the skies met the seas, allah wrote your name next to mine. im beyond thankful that you're the current one, the future one, the afterlife one. you're the one and only; ahmad rifa'ie. kite sentiasa merancangkan, tetapi allah sahaja yang menentukan. insyallah diberkati dunia and akhirat.
but this journey hasnt always been pretty things. its been a challenge, and he wouldnt bestow me something i cannot overcome. i just need to continously have the faith and believe.
all i can ask is keep me close to friends who loves me for me and is willing to give me a chance and keep me away from those who condemns me without a doubt.
blood with always be thicker than water. i treasure all my moments we had. i met you when i a violent age of 17. now i'm 24. these 7 years you have not only been my best friend i considered you as family. i hope you'll always be the same kind, loving and patient friend i first sat beside in computer lab. you have been an inspiration and believe it or not i've always secretly looked up to you. because you showed me that no matter how little you own in life it was ok. if you grew up with no one by your side it was still ok. and that if people around you threw shit at you it was ok to give them flowers. i never had the courage to tell you all this, but i look up to the person you were back then faezah adam. and alhamdulillah i met you.
now, all i can ask for is ya rabb don't put me back into what you once took me out from.
ya rabb keep my heart safe with you.
shaykh abdul jabbar "i asked allah to protect me from my enemies and i started losing my friends"
this is deep and it means alot to me. all i can say is allah has better instored for me. if you cant handle me at my worst you definitely do not deserve my best. alhamdulillah allah has closed my heart to whats not meant to be and open it to what i have always been overlooking. no amount of alhamdulillah can express me feeling grateful.
i have had families and friends with awkward reaction. some just refuse to talk to me. some talk behind me.
i have no control. but all i can say is alhamdulillah and thank you to those who accepted me for what i am. ill keep you in my prayers day and night always and forever.
'the word love in the quran, appears in over 90 places. but interestingly, it doesnt define the word love, but speaks about the very first consequences of love; that is commitment. islam talks about commitment, if you truly love something or someone you commit. if you do not, then your claim of real love is not real at all.'
i can go on and on about my love life. it may aspire you or just make you sick in the stomach. this life on earth, i've met a couple of wrong ones, a couple that just didn't work out and a couple that should have never crossed my path. thankfully 5000 million years ago when the skies met the seas, allah wrote your name next to mine. im beyond thankful that you're the current one, the future one, the afterlife one. you're the one and only; ahmad rifa'ie. kite sentiasa merancangkan, tetapi allah sahaja yang menentukan. insyallah diberkati dunia and akhirat.
but this journey hasnt always been pretty things. its been a challenge, and he wouldnt bestow me something i cannot overcome. i just need to continously have the faith and believe.
all i can ask is keep me close to friends who loves me for me and is willing to give me a chance and keep me away from those who condemns me without a doubt.
blood with always be thicker than water. i treasure all my moments we had. i met you when i a violent age of 17. now i'm 24. these 7 years you have not only been my best friend i considered you as family. i hope you'll always be the same kind, loving and patient friend i first sat beside in computer lab. you have been an inspiration and believe it or not i've always secretly looked up to you. because you showed me that no matter how little you own in life it was ok. if you grew up with no one by your side it was still ok. and that if people around you threw shit at you it was ok to give them flowers. i never had the courage to tell you all this, but i look up to the person you were back then faezah adam. and alhamdulillah i met you.
now, all i can ask for is ya rabb don't put me back into what you once took me out from.
ya rabb keep my heart safe with you.
