30.9.11
Life
finally alone time to talk to myself. i've realised something about myself. i don't know if its good or bad. i tend to not talk about anything that's bothering the shit out of me. i tend to keep it to myself and somehow a way or another find my way swimming out that pile of shit i landed in.
i don't let anyone in on my emotions. thus i guess, people around me wouldn't have the slightest idea of what goes on in this brain of mine. even if i were to talk about 'the situation' it definitely wouldn't be in a direct tone and i guess people around me are not just 'up there' to roll with me. so, you do the math. good or bad. but i have to admit, i'm grateful for those who are still in my life. definitely draws a fine line between stupid and not. sometimes its just hard telling people things about yourself, right?
lately it's been about the matter of love.
Do you have what it takes? If your relationship is in trouble, can you weather the storm? When the ground gives way and your world collapses, maybe you just need to have faith and trust that you can survive this together. Maybe you just need to hold on tight and no matter what, don't let go. i'm thankful for that someone who constantly gives in to me (giggles*)
well i guess everything has its up and down. One minute you're standing on solid ground, the next minute, you're not. And there are always two versions - yours and theirs. Both versions start the same way though; both start with two people falling in love.
i wouldn't trade the world for them. because they mean the world.
work
You work, you study, you prepare. Months and years leading to one day, the day when you step up. On that day you have to be ready for everything, but there's one thing you can never quite prepare for. A day when you step down. i never prepared myself well for it. my days consists of a mixture of 'i want to kill myself' and 'the world is so beautiful' with a constant of i hate certain people.
i'm a nice person. just don't push the bitch button. bipolar. omg.
lately i've learned that most people would say one thing to your face and just think of something different. but not to long ago, when i was going through a zombified period of my life, i met someone who (i never thought) actually believed in chances. it was nice talking to her, like a friend. an honest friend.
then again Sometimes it happens in an instance. We step up, we see a path forward. We see a path and we take it. Even when we have no idea where we're going.
quotes from jiggly puff,"girl, one day you're gonna snap so bad because you had enough of taking it all in."
Life
finally alone time to talk to myself. i've realised something about myself. i don't know if its good or bad. i tend to not talk about anything that's bothering the shit out of me. i tend to keep it to myself and somehow a way or another find my way swimming out that pile of shit i landed in.
i don't let anyone in on my emotions. thus i guess, people around me wouldn't have the slightest idea of what goes on in this brain of mine. even if i were to talk about 'the situation' it definitely wouldn't be in a direct tone and i guess people around me are not just 'up there' to roll with me. so, you do the math. good or bad. but i have to admit, i'm grateful for those who are still in my life. definitely draws a fine line between stupid and not. sometimes its just hard telling people things about yourself, right?
lately it's been about the matter of love.
Do you have what it takes? If your relationship is in trouble, can you weather the storm? When the ground gives way and your world collapses, maybe you just need to have faith and trust that you can survive this together. Maybe you just need to hold on tight and no matter what, don't let go. i'm thankful for that someone who constantly gives in to me (giggles*)
well i guess everything has its up and down. One minute you're standing on solid ground, the next minute, you're not. And there are always two versions - yours and theirs. Both versions start the same way though; both start with two people falling in love.
i wouldn't trade the world for them. because they mean the world.work
You work, you study, you prepare. Months and years leading to one day, the day when you step up. On that day you have to be ready for everything, but there's one thing you can never quite prepare for. A day when you step down. i never prepared myself well for it. my days consists of a mixture of 'i want to kill myself' and 'the world is so beautiful' with a constant of i hate certain people.
i'm a nice person. just don't push the bitch button. bipolar. omg.
lately i've learned that most people would say one thing to your face and just think of something different. but not to long ago, when i was going through a zombified period of my life, i met someone who (i never thought) actually believed in chances. it was nice talking to her, like a friend. an honest friend.
then again Sometimes it happens in an instance. We step up, we see a path forward. We see a path and we take it. Even when we have no idea where we're going.
quotes from jiggly puff,"girl, one day you're gonna snap so bad because you had enough of taking it all in."
