23.8.11
i miss last time. when it was just me alone against awesome fun.
work had been emotionally challenging. its hard when there someone out there ruining every thought that keeps your rolling. i feel very sad and distracted. conversations in the head with noone else but myself are something that i look forward to every single day. im definitely not the person i was a year ago. i miss being carefree. i miss having fun. guess i was never significant from the start. im done impressing you and your company. just let me rot in a little corner of the hospital and let the grey matter in my brain deplete like the thining ozone layer. im disgusted for you making fun of me asking me to eat during my fasting month, im disgusted in myself that i once actually looked up to you.
to teh botol:
mum said 'marriage is a gamble, you bet big you tio big. you bet small you tio small'. its all about luck. and i've never doubted what mum said.
but i guess its just not enough. besides what is enough. expectation makes someone forget his human. it was barely a week, you barely knew me. haha do you regret now?
i miss last time. when it was just me alone against awesome fun.
work had been emotionally challenging. its hard when there someone out there ruining every thought that keeps your rolling. i feel very sad and distracted. conversations in the head with noone else but myself are something that i look forward to every single day. im definitely not the person i was a year ago. i miss being carefree. i miss having fun. guess i was never significant from the start. im done impressing you and your company. just let me rot in a little corner of the hospital and let the grey matter in my brain deplete like the thining ozone layer. im disgusted for you making fun of me asking me to eat during my fasting month, im disgusted in myself that i once actually looked up to you.
to teh botol:
mum said 'marriage is a gamble, you bet big you tio big. you bet small you tio small'. its all about luck. and i've never doubted what mum said.
but i guess its just not enough. besides what is enough. expectation makes someone forget his human. it was barely a week, you barely knew me. haha do you regret now?
