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18.7.11
There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't 'cause I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone, because what if you learn that you need love and you don't have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever.even a piercing wouldn't hurt as much as this. this is the most painful thing I've ever done, and I'm a girl who's had 82 surgeries. My threshold for pain is pretty high. but this hurts like a bitch.

the thing is, it’s hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely, because almost everyone has that smallest bit of faith and hope that one day they would open their eyes and it would all come true. At the end of the day, faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don’t really expect it.

i wished you loved me more than anything. that's all.

Nadiah,19. I'm a professional butt cleaner. I personally feel that time is passing too fast. There’s too many to do, too many to encounter. So I’ll take too many pictures, laugh too much and love like I’ve never been hurt.