25.12.10
the new place has definitely been an eyeopener. it showed me the anxiety and distress people go through before they go under the knife. they go through this twilight where nothing else matters expect for whether will they make it out alive from the cold metal steel table. some start praying while others get lost in their own conversations in their heads.
The first 24 hours after surgery are critical. Every breath you take, every fluid you make, is meticulously reported and analyzed. Celebrated or mourned. But what about the next 24 hours? What happens with that first day turns to two and weeks turn into months? What happens when the immediate danger has passed, when the machines are disconnected and the teams of doctors and nurses are gone? Surgery is when you get saved, but post-op, after surgery, is when you heal. But, what if you don't?
and this is the world where i come from.
in summary: (work has been like this)
even if your hands are shaking. and your faith is broken. even as you eyes are closing. do it with a heart wide open.
finally 4 days off from the hospital. i definitely need to get away at some point and thank god for it. i definitely need a breather, collect my head together. i realized that i've come to a point whereby i really get immune to people giving up on me half-way because it has always seem to be turning out that way. but then again i definitely don't need anybody in my life who doesn't want to be there.
i cant wait to make new resolutions. V`_`v
the new place has definitely been an eyeopener. it showed me the anxiety and distress people go through before they go under the knife. they go through this twilight where nothing else matters expect for whether will they make it out alive from the cold metal steel table. some start praying while others get lost in their own conversations in their heads.
The first 24 hours after surgery are critical. Every breath you take, every fluid you make, is meticulously reported and analyzed. Celebrated or mourned. But what about the next 24 hours? What happens with that first day turns to two and weeks turn into months? What happens when the immediate danger has passed, when the machines are disconnected and the teams of doctors and nurses are gone? Surgery is when you get saved, but post-op, after surgery, is when you heal. But, what if you don't?
and this is the world where i come from.
in summary: (work has been like this)
even if your hands are shaking. and your faith is broken. even as you eyes are closing. do it with a heart wide open.
finally 4 days off from the hospital. i definitely need to get away at some point and thank god for it. i definitely need a breather, collect my head together. i realized that i've come to a point whereby i really get immune to people giving up on me half-way because it has always seem to be turning out that way. but then again i definitely don't need anybody in my life who doesn't want to be there.i cant wait to make new resolutions. V`_`v
